Sunday, November 16, 2014

A Blog Series With A Really Long Name :: Post 2

What I’ve learned since {this post} and what fully embracing the call to glorify God in this season of marriage and motherhood looks like for ME::

                            A Blog Series With A Really Long Name

        Post 2: Intentional Living: How God Has Wired You MATTERS

    Hello dear friends! Okay I’ve had this series of posts rattling around in my head for far longer than I’d like to admit. It’s embarrassing really. And since what I wanted to write was too much to fit into one post I decided to try my hand at a Blog Series. Ooooh... fancy ;) Just kidding of COURSE. I’m simply not adept enough to fit all of my thoughts cohesively into one post.

So: have you read part one ? No? Go read it! See I’m big on disclaimers because I’m big on the power of words. And I don’t want to confuse the thoughts and ideas of a rambling mid-twenties momma with the capital T Truth.

Alright. So now you’ve read it. Yes? Bottom line:

Life, and life abundant is found only
in the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ.
In submitting to His authority in your life and
falling under His grace and love.

All the rest of this? Everything I’m going to write about in this series of posts? This is simply response. An outpouring of what I’ve wrestled with in my heart for the past year (since this post), and where I have landed thus far in this journey to live with INTENTION and PURPOSE... and where I have come to find so much contentment and Joy.

Right. So, how God has wired you MATTERS.

My inspiration to finally sit down and write this particular post was the shortest series of text messages with an encouraging friend this evening. There is something about being understood, and being known. To have people, even just a person, who is wired like you. That you don’t have to explain yourself to or make apologies for yourself to. Its refreshing and encouraging and real.
Do you know what I mean? Let me back up a minute...

See it can be dangerous, this word of social media and cell phones. We can be “friends” with everyone! Be available to everyone, ALL THE TIME! Except... not really. Because when it comes down to it, we are not all wired the same. And where there is not grace, and depth, and history... and where we stretch ourselves too thin, where wiring mixes, and signals are misinterpreted, there’s fire. Neglect is prevalent, judgment inevitable, and people. get. burned. But for grace of God I’m quite sure I would have much bigger holes in my little circle of people. Because I’ve walked the tightrope. And I’ve hurt people, and its hard to look back and see that. And I have regrets, and I’ve asked forgiveness more than once. And the realization that I came too is that, despite culture telling me otherwise, I can’t have everything. I can’t be everything to everybody. I can’ t be available to everyone all the time. Am I called to love everyone and treat them with kindness and grace? Absolutely. But I can NOT be BFFs with everyone I encounter. It's not how I was wired.

Its going against the grain, trust me I know. I mean haven’t we been fed lines similar to this since we were wee little ones? You can do anything you put your mind to.  You can be anybody you want to be. You can have it all.

But you see I’ve realized that I can’t. Not because I’ m uninspired or backwards or crazy. But because I am so fully aware that I have been designed, and created, and thought out with a specific purpose. I have been WIRED!

“For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.”
Psalm 139:13-16

I was planned with intention, and intricacy. And where I continually strive to be somebody other than who I was created to be,  I will find nothing but friction. And exhaustion. Where I  try to be like HER or THEM, or even desire it in my heart, I am putting myself in a position of  being blinded to what it looks like to be like ME. And that is seriously risky business. Because we were MADE to be known, and we were made to know WHOSE we are. I love that David begins Psalm 139 with these words:

“You have searched me, Lord,
and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.
You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.”
Psalm 139:1-6

We are known! And where we come to an awareness that there is a plan and a purpose for our lives, we open ourselves up to being led. But in order to be led well, we MUST know our shepherd. And to know our shepherd, we must spend TIME with Him. And to have time with Him? To rest in Him? We need to know ourselves, to intentionally search ourselves and learn who we are! So that we can orient our  days to live the lives that He intends for us to live. That He laid down his LIFE for us to live. A life of joy and purpose. Not a life of timidity or uncertainty, but a life of eyes WIDE open, with no fear of the future or regret of the past. A life of being led by, and bringing glory TO the Giver of Life

So I'm going to get repetitive here: How God wired you MATTERS.. And knowing that you have BEEN wired? That matters for everything. Because if you can rest in that, you can be confident in who you are because of who HE is, and how HE sees you. And you can stop striving after whatever it is that makes you feel valued and important and worthy and accepted, and instead allow yourself to experience the freedom and grace of being led by the Maker of the Universe.

And that, my friends, is a beautiful way to live. It brings meaning to the mundane and purpose to the everyday. It reminds us that we are NOT lost in our own stories. Because we aren’t actually the ones writing our stories. {In fact... its really not even our story to begin with. But if we have been created and penned into this Greatest Love Story, then doesn’t it only make sense that we would find purpose in searching out the one who picked up the pen?}

 There is a plan and a purpose for your life.  For YOU.  For how God put you together. And He loves YOU.  And He was intentional in how He wired you. It MATTERS. And whether or not you believe that trickles down into every single area of our lives.

I want to end with two cautions:

    One, living this pre-approved life? It doesn’t guarantee roses and butterflies. In   fact we are   guaranteed that a life lived in faithfulness to Christ will see trouble, and struggles, and hardships. Living within the boundaries of who God has created you to be doesn’t mean not doing the hard thing. Sometimes you have to do the hard thing. And you’ll find that He’s doing something beautiful, even in the that hard place.

  And secondly, being who you were created to be and walking in the freedom of that does NOT mean accepting and continuing to walk in the areas of our lives that are in need of redemption. Coming under the authority and grace of God should lead us into situations that stretch us, and grow us, and shed light on the sins we are struggling with. And that is His Grace. And His promise:

“The Lord – who is the Spirit –
makes us more and more like him
as we are changed into his glorious image.”
2 Corinthians 3:18

Do you know who you are? More importantly do you know WHOSE you are? It matters friend. It matters for everything.

Grace to you from my house to yours, and all the love in my heart!